Yesterday that is. I think I caught a bit of that flu bug going around, or I just over did it, not too sure which. On Tuesday when the teacher came by I went hard all that morning getting the house cleaned and stuff organized. I was tired afterwards so I vegged a bit, but then by supper time I was faint and felt really gross. Like, really really drained. Then by bed time, nauseous. So yuck. Then, oddly enough, Nathan was up a lot in the night. Nathan! Yes, he's my good sleeper. From 12:30 till 4 am he was up. And he'd yell in his bed, but when I'd pick him up, he really just wanted to play. It's like he really just wasn't tired, and there wasn't really anything wrong. Who knows. But anyway, it was a yucky night. By morning, I felt even worse. Larry got the kids breakfast (and we had no milk, nice...) and headed out to work. I felt so bad for him! He was awake most of the night (thanks Nate!) then only had a piece of toast for breakfast, so he was hungry too. Anyways, the day dragged on. I read some books and felt horrid. Kayla went over to my sister's for a bit of a visit, and they picked up milk for us. Anyways, I'm glad that day is over! I feel much better today. Not totally normal, but way better.
So, I've talked or heard of a few other people who've lost babies lately. It seems most everyone gets D & C's now. I was never offered this option, but right now, it's looking mighty fine. I've heard they're terrible and uncomfortable. I must say, days and days of ummm bleeding (can I say that publicly? lol) is rather terrible and uncomfortable too! If I'm up doing things, I go through a pad an hour, I'm not sure if that's normal for most people, but for me it's a lot. And rather exhausting too. Part of me wonders if I should just be going hard, thus, bleeding hard and maybe it'll just get everything over with faster? Or do you simply bleed more... Is there a quota? Once you fill that quota you're done? In that case, I'd really like to be done. But, feeling like crap is no fun either. I keep telling myself, just a few more days, and I'll feel like a normal human again. I haven't even had bleeding like this after a birth...
I'm not sure if this is weird or not. But it seems that this is a very personal journey for everyone who miscarries, so perhaps there's no saying what's normal and what's not. But I've been thinking of the silver lining lately. See. I really need to clean my oven. And, because of the harsh chemicals used in oven cleaners, I never do that while pregnant. But yesterday I realized that I can now clean my oven! yay! I am also planning on starting running again. Maybe I can loose some of this baby weight I've been collecting (everyone collects something right? lol) for the last eight years. I really should get my garden planted. I'm probably a little late on this! But I have a bunch of potatoes I'd like to put in. I had hoped to find a big garden plot that someone wasn't using and put in a large garden this year, but I haven't found anything. My Aunty Janet used to have a huge garden! She's a pretty amazing lady...
Well, the sun is shinning here so I think I'll go outside with the kids and enjoy the back yard. I need to find excuses to be sitting more. Otherwise... yeah... a lot of bleeding. I am feeling better then yesterday and I sooo want to be back to normal! Well, must run... well, not really...since, I'm not planning on doing much of anything. But enough blethering for now!
Guys... my apologies if you were curious enough to read this post. It really was more info then you bargained for. But yet. I'm writing about miscarriage right now, and this is what it's all about! Perhaps you might need the info some day anyways. I sure hope not though.
Ok, I really am curious who's reading!! I've talked to a few people who say they are, so I know things aren't going unread.
Until tomorrow, or the next day, later all!
So, I've talked or heard of a few other people who've lost babies lately. It seems most everyone gets D & C's now. I was never offered this option, but right now, it's looking mighty fine. I've heard they're terrible and uncomfortable. I must say, days and days of ummm bleeding (can I say that publicly? lol) is rather terrible and uncomfortable too! If I'm up doing things, I go through a pad an hour, I'm not sure if that's normal for most people, but for me it's a lot. And rather exhausting too. Part of me wonders if I should just be going hard, thus, bleeding hard and maybe it'll just get everything over with faster? Or do you simply bleed more... Is there a quota? Once you fill that quota you're done? In that case, I'd really like to be done. But, feeling like crap is no fun either. I keep telling myself, just a few more days, and I'll feel like a normal human again. I haven't even had bleeding like this after a birth...
I'm not sure if this is weird or not. But it seems that this is a very personal journey for everyone who miscarries, so perhaps there's no saying what's normal and what's not. But I've been thinking of the silver lining lately. See. I really need to clean my oven. And, because of the harsh chemicals used in oven cleaners, I never do that while pregnant. But yesterday I realized that I can now clean my oven! yay! I am also planning on starting running again. Maybe I can loose some of this baby weight I've been collecting (everyone collects something right? lol) for the last eight years. I really should get my garden planted. I'm probably a little late on this! But I have a bunch of potatoes I'd like to put in. I had hoped to find a big garden plot that someone wasn't using and put in a large garden this year, but I haven't found anything. My Aunty Janet used to have a huge garden! She's a pretty amazing lady...
Well, the sun is shinning here so I think I'll go outside with the kids and enjoy the back yard. I need to find excuses to be sitting more. Otherwise... yeah... a lot of bleeding. I am feeling better then yesterday and I sooo want to be back to normal! Well, must run... well, not really...since, I'm not planning on doing much of anything. But enough blethering for now!
Guys... my apologies if you were curious enough to read this post. It really was more info then you bargained for. But yet. I'm writing about miscarriage right now, and this is what it's all about! Perhaps you might need the info some day anyways. I sure hope not though.
Ok, I really am curious who's reading!! I've talked to a few people who say they are, so I know things aren't going unread.
Until tomorrow, or the next day, later all!
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