Like anything, advances in our society seem to generally have a price to pay. Like for instance... All our wonderful medicine (I'm not being sarcastic there, but it sounds like it could be a good place for sarcasm) has been able to prolong the lives of so many people, in awesome ways. Yet, there's those cases, where it seems the lines are foggy. When is it ok to give up and let go? We see these debates often now. People have to make terrible choices, where before nature would have made that choice itself.
Which leads me to my own situation here. Thanks to our wonderful pregnancy tests, I knew what was going on. For sure. Now I would have been very suspicious, I will admit that, even without a test. But there's something different about knowing, and wondering, eh. Since there was so much spotting... well, I probably would have known anyways. But, how many miscarriages happen early, that people would have been blissfully ignorant of if it wasn't for the all amazing pregnancy test? Now, I'm not gonna stop using them (way to curious!) or anything. But it does make me stop and ponder the thought. Perhaps a lot of heartache would be missed if we just let everything well enough alone. Oh well, we didn't!
Ok, well, on with other new... Today was a nice day (say that with a Mr Roger's sounding voice and you might get a little chuckle out of it, hehe) , no really it was! I read most of the morning away. I nice book about Irish history (novel though, based on history) rather light reading and passed the morning by nicely. For me, getting to sit around reading is just an amazing thing! Not that I didn't have to get up a time or two to do things, but to just not do anything productive. Wow. So by noon, I was rather tired of that. And the book was done, haha So then normal life proceeded.
We asked Emily this morning if it was daddy's job to "pank her bum" and she said "no, it's mommy's job" so then we asked the question again only with it being mommy's job, and she'll give the opposite answer. Funny girl! She cracks me up all day.
Sorry to be grim... but back to the whole bad news stuff... I told the kids today. Such amazing little people. So quick to love. Kayla was so very sad and said how she so wanted another baby. Isn't that amazing? This girl who was the baby herself for 4 years (and really loved it) was so ready to have another little one in the home. She cried a fair bit. That's more her way and I expected it more. She was trying to figure out how the baby got out and how come it couldn't live anymore... She wondered how I would feel if it was one of them that was the one that died... oh boy. I told her that I'm so very thankful that she was here in my arms and that they didn't die so I wasn't going to worry about that.
Levi took it in stride more. He quickly said that he was ok since he would see his baby brother or sister in Heaven someday so that was ok. He did really wonder if it was a boy or girl though. Both the kids sat on my lap quietly for a long time though. Kayla cried and Levi just snuggled... Then because of all their questions about where this baby was getting out of mommy I got out a visual dictionary that my Mother in Law gave me (very handy, love it, thanks so much!) and it had some drawings of the inside of the body. They were rather fascinated by it all, so I guess we kinda tucked in a science lesson into the whole thing!
Levi went off then, and Kayla helped me start on supper. Levi came back about 15 minutes later and asked me to never talk about the baby with him again because it makes in want to cry and he didn't want to cry. I'm not too sure if that's ok, or if that's just his way. Hmmm...
Back to Kayla. She is really starting to be a big help in the kitchen. I told her we were making mashed potatoes and she got everything out and started pealing. I didn't notice her hard at it till she already had two pealed! After the 3rd on she scuffed her wrist, just barely, but enough so she tired of peeling. Still, I'm always proud to see initiative!
To rattle on a little more.. I had a marvy talk with my Aunty Sue today. She had some really great suggestions about how to help the kids and us process this all. All my Aunts are so amazing, I feel so blessed.
Well, I should run do my dishes. We had Jocelyn and Daniel over for a roast dinner tonight (thanks Dale, the roast was yours! Yummy!) then played Settlers for a while so the dishes sat. Good times. not the dishes, Settlers. Later all... well, I'm not sure that anyone is reading this anymore... so, later...umm... stalkers who read others blogs of people they don't know (yes, I'm one of them too...)
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