Pregnancy Update

      Here Lola, this is for you :) And all you other pregnancy lovers, haha

Well, I'm on the home stretch now. Somewhere around the 36 wk mark. I'm soooooooo ready to have this baby!!! Ok, well, personally ready, but I don't even have a spot for the bassinet (um... or a bassinet) yet or the car seat, so I probably should figure that out first, lol

I'm feeling huge and seriously uncomfortable though. I don't remember feeling this uncomfortable with the other kids, but maybe I'm just a huge whiner this time! But thankfully life is busy enough that the days mostly go by quickly.

I've had two great appointments with my midwife. I am not a person who is big on change, and even though I really wanted to try something different, the idea of dealing with new wasn't appealing as the time gets closer. Really, it was my own fears. Releasing was wasn't ideal, but was normal and comfortable, for something new and the uncertainty that it wasn't my ideal either.  And then there was also the practical end of things that it's a big deal to drive to the city (takes me about 2 hrs to get right to my appointment from my home) just for a 15-20 minute appointment.  Anyways, I came super close to switching to a dr here (I found one I could get in with)  but I just didn't feel peace about it. So I continued to hum and haw, because I didn't want to make a decision till I felt good about it.  A few  good conversations with different ones helped me realize that my struggle was mostly dealing with fear of the unknown. Once I realized that it rather simplified things, I do not want to be held back by my fears!! So I decided to lay it all on the line and tell my midwife about my struggle and she was really good about it. It was the first time I met this midwife actually as she was new to the team but I really really like her! And I feel total peace about sticking with my plan!  A long time ago in Bible college the prez was speaking to all of us and told us that when you're up on the mountain top and you can see well and you feel good, that's the time to make decisions, and when you're down in the valley times of life and everything seems terrible, that's the time to stick to those decisions, not to change direction when you don't have good perspective on it all. That's my own little paraphrase of it at least :)  But that's basically what it came down to. Stick to what you know you want, don't just give up your dreams for 'easy'. 

On another note, this baby loves to be posterior!! Which is great for seeing lots of kicks and movement, but for birth, I would like baby to not be posterior! Plus, it's more comfortable for me on a daily basis till then if baby is sitting right. Hopefully this changes soon, I'm trying lots of tricks :)

Now just to finish all the stuff on my list to get ready for this baby!!! The list is growing and shrinking every day, hahaha.I went hard last week and finished a few things up, but I still need to get my freezer meals done. I made pockets buns already so it's been a little bit started.

Well, I should get this day underway. I started writing before all the kids woke up, now they're up and have had breakfast so school should get underway!